9-6-25

1:38 PM.  Vacaville. Got back from run a bit ago.  Wanted 5 or more but the heat stopped me.  Surprised I did what I did after brunch not long before in Winters, followed by sparkling wine and a couple wines tasted at Turkovich. Nurse and her friend now by the pool, me stealing a couple…

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Meeting going over by 30, so 90 mins total.  Too hot outside to run.  SHIT.  Should have hit the pavement early.  But… no excuses.  Own the reality. 12:08 Lunch done.  Landscapers doing their landscaper things with loud blades and engines, propellers and what be so no power nap. Yes I was thinking of taking one…

coffee stains for medals

half-dead laptopwounded animal. I don’t “wake up.”resurrect.claw from graveOf sleep and doubtAnd the same questionsThat chewed my nerves yesterday. No more.Not today.Today is blunt force.Today is fangs.Today is singular. She, the only solver, healer—My need for her — InexplicableAngel flight into the clean war. Composition. Dreams…Polite battles fought.But meTrench-rot and inkfire.

Wallet Stillness

Early morning for the Nurse and I.  She needing to be at some conference, committee she’s on, early.  And at a different campus. Me getting home and drafting something I need send later.  Not letting it distract me from writing…. From building.  Singularizing. Coffee on the mind.  The coffee place down the Road and ……

CURRICULUM – Sight …..

Up before 7 and went to gym, ran over 5.5 miles on tread.   A little unexpected thunder and lightning, rain, surprising the Nurse and I. 9:22 at the desk, espresso done after cold brew at Peet’s, our typical coffee date and I’m moving faster.  Today’s curriculum about seeing where I am and what I’m…

Soon.  All I’m going to say.

Found a new attitude and perspective, early this morning after an odd dream I can’t remember now but I felt uncomfortable and hesitant not so much scared to fall back into any peculiar or startling image-scape. NEWNESS, like the Students at SRJC and I used to talk about with Kerouac’s Road.  Writer, new experiences…. The…