10:12 Handling anything in front of me. In, and out. Running today, but not far. In fact, the entire route, modified. Coffee made at home today, fourth day in a row for the Nurse and I. My mind… placid, grateful, eager, and with new method. I’m caring for ME, yes, but thinking about the life…
from I JUST DECIDED TO STOP
Someone says hello walking by. Couldn’t remember her name. She tells me, I pretend like I remembered, not sure why I did that but I did. Probably not wanting to come off as rude, or forgetful. Notes on day, written earlier, “…Tuesday had the personality of a grocery store aisle — endless, fluorescent, trying too…
Class.
Ideas… from sales to the Career Heights Highway project…. Staying smooth in the day, not running at lunch but in a content STORM. This… Mindful, here and present, managing this book of business which is an actual book and not just a fucking spreadsheet of leads and vendors and contact/touch patterns. Logging back in to…
Find myself getting disorganized. I decide to STOP. No, seriously.
After the run today where I went out 4 miles and turned around, and stopped short of six thus having to walk the whole way back… DONE. Learning and adjusting. More than adjusting, I’m re-aligning. Not sure I should have hyphenated that, but… I’m here, still on break, probably 20 minutes over what I should…
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11:27. Lunch. 12:58….. Lunch over and me trying to stay on-task with the curriculum pieces I’m putting together. Coffee but it’s not helping. So what do I do, asking myself… don’t come up with an answer. Making that the case. Stay whim-driven, randomized. That’s the only way to dig out of this lull. See guys…
Getting to the office and noticing my overthought.
That’s simple, that straightforward and honestly honest with myself today. No run. Too windy and of course too much to do. Finally some time to SELF in the writing booth… Day NINE in this last of such trivial countdowns for SELF. Only reason I’m not quitting is from refusing to let myself. Again, deciding NO….
Zen…. Taking a moment for you,
always needed.
On the lake today, later. Soon, actually.
Nurse and her daughter Jordan off to Nugget to get sandwiches and whatever else for boat time. 6.33 miles today, under 9 pace, so I’m pleased, but cautioned in my satisfaction. Keep this up, morning running. Nothing else. Entire day should be dedicated to content, business, revenue generation. See what happens tomorrow. Wine tasting yesterday…
jouRNal…
5-16-26 I’m 47 in 13 days. My first thought this morning. At house now, getting ready for day in Sonoma County with Nurse, visiting friend Taryn at her winery, just up the road a few miles from our condo, which still hasn’t fucking sold. I’m impatient, and not really sure what the fuck the realtor…
Teaching day.
Nurse and her youngest daughter out for a nail appt, little girls time. Me, here with so many ideas and intentions for the day…. DECIDED TO STOP…. What exactly. Everything from overthinking, to self-doubting like I said, wondering, worrying, or any bullshit cognition a human can produce. DAY SIX…. That’s where we are. Won’t lie,…
thinking about it…
Developing a playbook. Rooted in sales practice and thought, the Consumer Sales Training Story, yes, but more than that. Career Heights, I can’t stay away from the idea. Put it on the blog earlier, and how do you get there, I asked my student. How do you get from the envisioned to the material? Still…
Career Heights Highway idea…..
Getting away from sales for a minute. Thinking of a more universal and applicable mode. Never again, EVER, having to be on-time to a shitty job. We spend so much of our lives at work.. WORK, not home…. Why not love it? Why not have it be more than what you could envision?? Gripped by…