Focusing. On the day. Odd rain again, driving here. Humid, feel like it’s humid in here, like a soft fit of moisture around my desk. Coffee and meditation, focusing on NOW. Right here, where I’m standing… more than merely mindful, I’m situation and a part of this scene. Integral. Another sip, another truth. Making myself…
Zen Den writing… hear people in the break room on the other side of the wall, but I’m ignoring them. Working with the scene set.
Returned to fiction yesterday, then placing the piece I wrote in GPT for some insight, workshopping, like a book club-esque reaction. Interesting, what populates. But, the more important aspect, the practice… I’m writing fiction. This most recent one, about quota, and sales, and the hitting quota but realizing that, at some point, you don’t want…
Quickly nearing noon.
Writing more in verse, than paragraph. Just what I need, more freedom and liberation in what speak I offer, be it self or a reader. Birds outside, sounding different. And the peace about me, also different. More set and molecular, something. 11:41 The world continues to open without explanation. Me…. Deciding to do the same….
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Posting everything today. Just DECIDING to do so. Okay.. why. What’s the reason.. Honestly, because the gratitude I feel after a weekend with the kids and the Nurse, going toilet a baseball game and moving much of our life from Windsor, “the loft”, as I’ve called it before taking official possession 4/1/22, to our house…
Field Note
Calm. Music, shade, a garden area all to myself.
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Nothing to prove, nowhere to really be but here. Six years ago, I thought this feeling was for someone else. 11:24 = Back from run. 3.36 mile, 8:38 per, I think. Not bad, didn’t have any aim in mind, pace or how I felt I just wanted to, 1, get out, and 2, reach 5k….
Today.
Over yesterday. Always. ❤️
from I JUST DECIDED TO STOP
I didn’t earn this morning. I just showed up for it, and it showed up back. Maybe that’s the whole secret — not fixing everything, just finally, quietly, not fighting any of it. But this isn’t only stillness. Underneath the quiet, something has shifted. I AM done doubting myself. I JUST DECIDED — not tomorrow,…
Gratitude, all there is…
Weights with the Nurse, first thing this morning. We didn’t have a lot of time, so we had to keep it condensed, 30 minutes. Readied quick, to Peet’s. No home coffee, deciding to treat ourselves. Gratitude… thankful for mornings like this, meeting I had yesterday with Sales Ops Dir, about the Tracker and how to…
jouRNaling…
09:16… what now. 11:04. Car unpacked, quick call with FMM (Field Market Manager), and then again, I ask myself NOW WHAT?? Small moves, little tasks, just keep moving. This entry, being one of them. Hot out, so no run. If I could just force myself in AM, early-EARLY…. Tomorrow, trying again. Weights later, vowing to…