PRESENT. I need to be. And more. Grateful for this day working at home, the lofi, the coffee, messages with the Nurse. Decision, to care for SELF and participate only in energies and frames that elevate my joy. Some will call it selfish. I know ‘they’ will. But… I keep with my current Beat. Authenticity,…
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Working from home, thank the UNIVERSE.
Texted Nurse as soon as I woke up. She, returning home tomorrow. Me, keeping busy with house projects, work obviously, and this new approach to my site, PMDC. Receipts piling, again. Ugh, why do I do this to myself? Making a project of it, each telling a story, or giving some complexity where maybe I…
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Seeing yourself More In all Scenes
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Feel myself start to think and analyze which only leads to overthought and more of it so I stop it where it stands. Move with intention and an authentic angle that only now I recognize. I JUST DECIDED TO STOP. With the imposter syndrome… the self-doubt. Wondering, the what-if, stressing over something not tangible. Denying…
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Not sure how much longer I’ll be in class with this student. 45 minutes, what I need in terms of content. Easy… Rep in a meeting with his team, which gives me more time. No more overthinking…. Taking a walk around the office, looking at all the different departments, or neighborhoods as I call them. …
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Focusing. On the day. Odd rain again, driving here. Humid, feel like it’s humid in here, like a soft fit of moisture around my desk. Coffee and meditation, focusing on NOW. Right here, where I’m standing… more than merely mindful, I’m situation and a part of this scene. Integral. Another sip, another truth. Making myself…
Zen Den writing… hear people in the break room on the other side of the wall, but I’m ignoring them. Working with the scene set.
Returned to fiction yesterday, then placing the piece I wrote in GPT for some insight, workshopping, like a book club-esque reaction. Interesting, what populates. But, the more important aspect, the practice… I’m writing fiction. This most recent one, about quota, and sales, and the hitting quota but realizing that, at some point, you don’t want…
Quickly nearing noon.
Writing more in verse, than paragraph. Just what I need, more freedom and liberation in what speak I offer, be it self or a reader. Birds outside, sounding different. And the peace about me, also different. More set and molecular, something. 11:41 The world continues to open without explanation. Me…. Deciding to do the same….
7/20/2026
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7/20/2026
Posting everything today. Just DECIDING to do so. Okay.. why. What’s the reason.. Honestly, because the gratitude I feel after a weekend with the kids and the Nurse, going toilet a baseball game and moving much of our life from Windsor, “the loft”, as I’ve called it before taking official possession 4/1/22, to our house…