journal…

11:57 Heading to lunch.  Long meeting and need a break.  Turns out, no run.  It’s cloud and I’m not in the running mind.  AGIAN, should have gone this morning but with interrupted sleep and tired as  tired can be, no. So, taking self to lunch.  Thinking…. Tacos?  Or the Peruvian place.  I don’t know, not…

14:52—>

Mindful practice saves me — and where self-assessment makes it stick. Mindfulness says: Notice what’s here. Self-assessment asks: What’s working? What’s not? Then I realize, everything is working.  Then ask, what wouldn’t be working, and what would, and to what end?  Mind going in circles, and shit maybe I’m overthinking as the Nurse always says…

08:16 in office and moving a bit slow.

Coffee helping.  The Now, this desk and the meeting at 09:00… everything in between.  Will need more coffee, for sure. $2.49 spent on coffee this morning at the Vacaville Travel Station or whatever they call it.  More than I wanted to spend on a straight coffee, and I think they raised their fucking prices, but…

7-12-25

Saturday.  I think. Not sure what the day is and it doesn’t matter.  And honestly getting sick of tracking time, giving it so much weight and importance, so much pull on perception. Nurse taking a shower, me typing at the desk in our room for the first time in….  New tattoo yesterday.  The most magnificent…

Kong Fi

Ready light pause and promise Meaning full wheels coax Forth back track snap

inward jots…

06:34 Nurse already out, heading to Vacaville for an appointment.  LoFi on, latte left – Thanks, Babe! – and now, peace before the day starts.  Thought I’d want to take a nap, a quick collection of sleep, rest before the day taxied out but no… staying here at the keys. Olive on the floor next…

13:46 Back in Windsor, “my” place. Nurse to be here later.  Oliver and I driving over together, I’m Mr. Dog Mom today.  First time I’ve ever done it and it’s easy ‘cause Oliver is an easy character.  Four-legged character. Should be in a meeting soon, just waiting ….. On call.  Observing one of the inside…

Playbook writing.

In office.  And already am ablaze.  Taking the playbook approach and with the ‘day model’ mind.  At this point in day, I should be living more than writing, but just now taking a quick typed detour, aside. Lunch today, somewhere different.  Where.  Not sure, but bringing notebook and taking pictures of everything.  The idea is…

///// — 6-29-25

Putting myself back in the professor seat…. Stance and way of thinking.  I have to, it’s the only way for me and my style of writing and thinking and living, seeing every moment and conversation as an instructional morsel… Writing my way to anything.  You, reader, can too.  I want you to believe that.  Whatever…