9-19-25

Friday.  And the Happiness is nearly deafening.  Quick check in with the Field Sales Manager after sending some emails and starting another project associated with curriculum. The Story at the Company intensifies for me and in the best way.  Starting with these new projects, and mirroring them here.  I become the Company, the role itself…

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Back in the chair, Oliver laying close to me, which he rarely does when I come up here to work.  Nurse still in her ward, for another 90 minutes or so she tells me. Inventory, now the practice.  All writings have to be put out as a generator.  Listening to 80s tracks which I rarely…

Energy.

Attitude. Deploying SKILL….  Keep a log, whatever it looks like. (Should be putting this in the Playbook for Content, and I will, but quickly noting here, for now…) 10:07, meeting done and my thoughts are everywhere.  Thinking in terms of deliverables, and inventory.  I love it.  Excited and a bit nervous, feeling not so much…

9-18-25

September’s end. Vacaville, 8:24 PM. Prepping for meeting with VP.  Finished all prep last night, just going through PPT now.  I hate PowerPoint, to be honest.  Makes me feel dependent and shackled, confined and it detracts from confidence.  But, I’m making it work.  It’s a standard, I get it. Taking some time to self, didn’t…

Day starting in Field with coworker from the MDU world,

driving me to several parts of Santa Rosa, looking at different building and install types.  Reminded me of the AE days doing site visits.  Most will think this is geeky tech talk but I’m not from the world, this world, so I find it interesting and feel the same way I did as a new…

At the drawing board…

Notes and more of them, swarming.  Not sure where my energy and focus is pulling me. Still with the old pictures… need to get out, take more.  Wherever I am.  Not much here in Vacaville, really.  So diving into the camera and seeing what I forgot about.  And there’s more than I thought, thankfully. Slow…

3:40 PM

Back from baseball. Exhausted from heat, and listening to people talk.  And talk.  Talk more.  Go back and forth about whatever in that expected and airy, lazy laugh and “Ha ha huh….. yeah yeah yeah”, the soccer mom/baseball dad language.  Nothing against it, just when it’s so trite, I glaze. Barely energy to type.  Relax,…

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Indecision.  11:38 Cleaning the Archive, that weird but intriguing closet or storage space, or para-room in the master bedroom.  Thought about moving this desk in there, but then put a knife through the Composition of my indecision. Typing in room, coffee and not espresso, my mood calm and SELF assembled. No negatives.  SELF.CARE… the day’s…

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After a trip to the coffee spot by the Green the other week, I turned left and left on a random street, then writer back in chair.  Cup smoldering on desk, taste still bitter but beautiful and seductive nudge.  Don’t want to be stuck in thought so I won’t let SELF stop typing, who gives…