I’m not letting any human or action, even and especially if my own, douse anything disruptive on my yay-say, today. Or ever. Mindful of where I am… appreciating… teaching myself, again and again. Not in speech group today, but more and more thinking about what I’m an “expert” in. I want to say nothing, but…
Nurse’s birthday….. Me working from home, slow day. Latte done.
And what am I doing…? Notes, planning the day, next week. Time just moves. Sales content, grounded in perception, realism, simplicity. No speech given today. Time to gather and collect…. Today’s gift to SELF —> LOVE. Of everything… SELF, of course. But this chair, this laptop, the company, my colleagues and everything I’m learning… music. …
12:33
Lunch till 13:15. Home after that. Tired and had to force character in class. Did quite well, if I can be honest. I knew my thoughts weren’t giving me an adequate assessment of my state, the morning, how confident or excited I was about class. Student is engaged, experienced, communicative. Seriously, it’s like the Universe…
Not every day is a breakthrough.
Some days are maintenance.Some days are survival.Some days are just… quiet. And that counts.
At work. Forgot there was a party today. Our rebranding, “BUILT DIFFERENT”. I love it…
And the custom coffee cups, reading WIRED DIFFERENT. I’m feeling off this, and after such a zen-purposed and coded drive. Time to self, giving this writer the gift of quiet, music then quiet, then meditation on 12 to Arnold Drive, then into Petaluma. All I could feel was peace… And now here with all this…
5-5-26
On lunch…. Loving the day, but missing the Nurse. Found something in my teaching approach today, and what I stress. Again, putting it on me to go outside and a bit intentionally distanced from expected or tiresome sales language and ideology…. Peace of mind. Empathy. Presence… ACCESSIBILITY. One more cup…. Hot, strong, writer-intended. Everything where…
May 5th, 2026… Tuesday.
Made it to HQ, thankfully… no issues or episodes with the RAV. Ready for training, should go all day since I didn’t get to teach yesterday. More than sales, I’m focusing on culture, making it your own, CORE VALUES, Key Behaviors…. Going outside the sales word and idea. Yes, I’m a Consumer Sales Trainer/Sales Training…
Still recovering mood-wise from this morning’s car incident.
And the fucking test I had to pay for, the “diagnostic” as they called it, came up with NO-THING. But I still had to pay. In home office, one espresso, a double, down. May have another… keep this writer in the chair, don’t move I say to myself. Working on speech/short essay for Thursday. Trying…
Working on prospecting, starting new conversations. On the drive back from Sonoma County, this was all that was in the writer’s head.
But I wasn’t thinking of it as a writer. But a sales professional. Selling what?? SITES. Websites. Of any kind. Small Business, the current focus and vertical. 10 conversations for the day. Stopping there for now… building a site. Just an idea for now, but then another finds my attention and I put it to…
Wine revisit…
Memories and new pages, blended.
5-1-25
Birthday month. And this month, more SELF-Care/Love/Talk. More elevation. This morning forgetting my phone at Peet’s here in town, first time I’ve ever done that. Luckily our friend behind the counter, making the drinks or on the 1’s and 2’s like I always say, Aaron, saw I left it and kept it safe. Perfect but…