Freewrite.  13:40

Lunch done and me with thoughts atop thoughts.  Gratitude intoned and thrown.  Not sure where to start, other than I feel so free.  The Nurse and I reflect and converse about this a lot.  Just a few minutes ago actually over text. Going through new pictures taken on T7, of…..  You’ll later know.  But another…

7-31-25

Too hot to run, so weights it is.  Tele-appt at 13:00.  Just got off a call, now with time to SELF.  Reflect, breath, be more than just a normal mindful but see myself in this Vacaville room and house, at this desk… what did I do to get here?  Look for love, finding it, now…

7-26-25

08:50 back from coffee and getting ready for…. In the book, don’t worry.  Big day for the Nurse and I.  Again, more later. Mindful of the room, me in it.  Feelings, emotions – Calm, grateful, but uncontrollably excited. For everything.  What’s next in the Story, starting with the Company.  And, then, of course, BDX.  Taking…

7-23-25

First meeting lighting me on fire.  Hard to contain passion after a meeting like that. Where you’re thanked, praised, asked for further insight.  Huh, imagine that.  And, ENCOURAGED to keep doing what you’re doing…? 09:28 and off the ground.  Thinking about the lunch run, but also still feeling the 7-miler from yesterday.  Nothing thinking about…

Taking 10 or 15 or more for ME.

Coffee and the writing space, this little booth.  Full-circle moment for me, and where I am in the circle is telling me to keep going.  To be my own AI.  Not that I ever really use it seriously, but to depend more on myself and what I’m thinking in a given moment.  Right now… quiet…

7-16-25

Office.  Hearing everything.  Senses heightened, rereading notes from yesterday on branding, content creation.  You don’t “need” anything.  Everything for creation is already present. I’m more alert and awake and sharp and hungry than in past months, or maybe years.  Obvious why that is.  Keep the Beat in its complete keep. More coffee, first note Nurse,…

journal…

11:57 Heading to lunch.  Long meeting and need a break.  Turns out, no run.  It’s cloud and I’m not in the running mind.  AGIAN, should have gone this morning but with interrupted sleep and tired as  tired can be, no. So, taking self to lunch.  Thinking…. Tacos?  Or the Peruvian place.  I don’t know, not…

14:52—>

Mindful practice saves me — and where self-assessment makes it stick. Mindfulness says: Notice what’s here. Self-assessment asks: What’s working? What’s not? Then I realize, everything is working.  Then ask, what wouldn’t be working, and what would, and to what end?  Mind going in circles, and shit maybe I’m overthinking as the Nurse always says…

7-10-25

Wrote yesterday, hiring yourself to teach YOU.  Right now reader, I’m on a tidal wave biblical-like, of self-education.  Exploration, elevation. Centralizing and composing.  08:59 and well off the ground.  In flight, I mean.  This desk, this house, the Nurse, what we have and what I’ve learned from her… latte done already. Shit. And, no coffee…

///// — 6-29-25

Putting myself back in the professor seat…. Stance and way of thinking.  I have to, it’s the only way for me and my style of writing and thinking and living, seeing every moment and conversation as an instructional morsel… Writing my way to anything.  You, reader, can too.  I want you to believe that.  Whatever…

9-1-24

Take time for yourself.  Step back, don’t feel that you always have to be “producing”. Quiet is okay, stillness is healthy…. Taking time to collect is a way to self-empower and heal if needed. You’ll discover new ideas, strengths, questions and things to pursue. You can always start over, you can always re-write…. Take the…