Indecisive, just being honest. What’s my focus, what is my subject matter, where am I an expert? Then I realize, too many fucking questions. Taking a walk around the office after this interview… Interview over and day slows. Meeting in 15 minutes, but nothing exceptionally pressing. Speaking for myself. Moving for SELF, my character now…
Tag: wellness
08:44, and like that, well……. Music.
That needs to be more a focus. Nurse and I watching a movie last night, about music and people pursuing it. I put on some Lofi beats, start writing. Paper, then typing… Rebuild, restart, open container Of instruments Time to carve All bite, never a bark More concerned with end than a simple start Missiles…
Friday, but it doesn’t feel like it. Monday is when everything really starts.
New sales content for trainees, have three students next week. Two in SoCal, one up here, East Bay. Five miles ran earlier. Up the hill, Vaca Valley Pkwy. The year is already moving with indifference. Everything is content I tell myself, al rooms. Me sitting on the floor, looking at the tree in our room…
15:22
….. This first day has a been a storm, not just with the rain but content and questions being answered by the scene itself. Leaving in about 20 for another errand. Peace overtakes me. This new year, this first day, even after the horrible sleep last night interrupted by canine anxiety and fireworks and explosions…
I got out there.
I fucking did it. 6.32 miles, 8:47 per. Not bad. In fact, I’m surprised I did that well, considering how fucked my/our sleep was last night. Little after 13:00. Thinking of either getting out of the house and writing or driving somewhere to take pictures. Either one or the other Mikey, can’t have both. And……
Thursday January 1st, 2026: HERE. Ready for everything. Creating EVERYTHING. That I need, want, think or dream of, slightly fancy. Doing all of it. 08:54, home office. Latte sipped slow as always, and me thinking of a rain run. Taking a break… 11:06. Nap and an early lunch, didn’t sleep well last night so doing…
12-30-25
10:32. In office. Slow, two additional projects already brought to finish. Cold out, but I’m committed to forcing myself to run. Belief that I can get out, maybe even shock myself today, go further than I thought which I’ve done before. So, then, why not today? Day moving slow, or that’s how I feel. …
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Tired, winding down. About to close the kitchen and day. 19:38 Nurse at a late appointment. Nothing in the way of energy left in this writer but staying up a bit longer. Finish in kitchen, pack bag for tomorrow. Running bag, new Garmin the Nurse bought me for xmas… can’t stop thinking about the past…
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13:25 Tired. Hoping to get out for a run. Will probably be a short one. 5k I’d say. Done with project for the day at work, and not too much communicating taking place. Slow Monday, not complaining. 16:36 Back from coffee and groceries. Nurse and I taking a nap still tired from the early morning…
12-29-25
Catching up. Trying… scattered and that’s not helping. 10:14, pace increasing. Hitting multiple projects and facets of the 30-60-90 project for Sonic. Espresso, a double, just made downstairs talking with Nurse. 2026, well under way. Consolidation and cancellation of some projects. I Just DECIDED To STOP…. Book and overarching project and mind for this writer….
Taking a moment in my room,
useful pause, eyes on whatever’s out the window. We all need to stop, don’t worry about productivity or progress. There is progress in the stillness, just for a moment, ‘cause the moment is you. Your collection point, YOUR peace. ♥️
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This morning….
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