17:22

White wine and a meditation, quiet, enjoying the sound of wind gusts outside gentle in their waltz with trees. Nothing can be controlled, but my reaction. And, as it happens, I am not reacting. I’m home. I’m at PEACE, with my bride-to-be. I’m a fighter, though. A new one. Newly empowered and declared and written….

Week Starts, But I Already Started Writing

Number of ways.  And more than a simple choice, or decision or declaration.  Embodiment, and moving my mode to one that doesn’t entail as much thinking. That’s right, think less.  As in, WAY less. Everything from whim today, and for the foreseeable.  Lunch with the Nurse has me riled and impossible to calm.  Why?  The…

Friday.  Not that I’m one of those Friday rahrahrah people…

Class in 17 minutes.  Looking at this at anything but sales or sales-related. EVERYTHING Heights Highway, where I’m placing everything.  Even myself. Consolidating in the easiest way, and that’s what I’m learning to appreciate – when something is made simple, more singularized, it is more applicable, or useful, more adaptable I guess. Too many want…

CHANGE

Day closing but I’m not slowing. Writing any thought feeling dream fantasy worry or possibility that comes to this writer.  Writing everything, literally everything.  Thinking of a class of SB, then I’ll acquire that. 36 DAYS…. Consolidating journals.  Counted how many active ones I have going and.. no.  That has to change. It’s just me…..

Just DECIDED…

NEW DAY Deciding that stressing and overthinking are illegal.  More like a ruling. Like I’m a judge in my own court. Creating feeling, and fuck the result, consequence, response, whatever. You know how amazing this feels? One deadline for day, later. I’m here, in this Beat, moment, scene, and not trying to fix or improve…

Note

Composure is part of the composition. Protect the quiet that lets you think clearly.Care for the mind doing the work.Move with intention, not urgency. Not everything deserves access to your attention. Don’t let the day untie you.

Today.

Over yesterday. Always. ❤️

jouRNaling…

09:16… what now. 11:04.  Car unpacked, quick call with FMM (Field Market Manager), and then again, I ask myself NOW WHAT?? Small moves, little tasks, just keep moving.  This entry, being one of them. Hot out, so no run.  If I could just force myself in AM, early-EARLY….  Tomorrow, trying again.  Weights later, vowing to…