12:04… not running today, the right decision.

Head  spinning.  Do I have too many projects?  What would be the essential one.  The anchor, or nucleus??  I guess this blog, or the other, or both.

I’m overthinking, and starting to be a hungry-loopy sort of sensation.

Leaving house at 12:30.

May need a nap when back.  Leaving for Sonoma County at…???  Hmm….  Now I am overthinking.  Obsessing over the clock, time, where to be and why when with whom, FUCK—

Book due at month’s end.  Deciding to STOP.  The past week offering instruction, stop being afraid, or second-guess, or like I shared with the Nurse earlier no more of the drawing scenes and conversations, interactions that haven’t yet happened.

Sounds easy, yes, but that is beaming and beeping more than any other thought this morning.

SELF-Care, extending the definition, in this book… pausing, of the course the care facet… listening, listening to your voice, only that positive one – Seriously, the negative one needs to immediately shut it’s fucking mouth, ‘cause I’ve had enough of it.

Time moves quick and mercilessly, so why would I spend it listening to anything negative, any voice or human, even words souring from me. 

PAS PLUS!!!

Self-belief, of course a loud visible pillar in this definition.  MY, book on SELF-Care.  Starting today— Well, started already with the DECIDED book, but taking to a new room and hue, new truths and higher if at all existent or tangible roofs.