Texted Nurse as soon as I woke up. She, returning home tomorrow. Me, keeping busy with house projects, work obviously, and this new approach to my site, PMDC. Receipts piling, again. Ugh, why do I do this to myself? Making a project of it, each telling a story, or giving some complexity where maybe I…
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Focusing. On the day. Odd rain again, driving here. Humid, feel like it’s humid in here, like a soft fit of moisture around my desk. Coffee and meditation, focusing on NOW. Right here, where I’m standing… more than merely mindful, I’m situation and a part of this scene. Integral. Another sip, another truth. Making myself…
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Nothing to prove, nowhere to really be but here. Six years ago, I thought this feeling was for someone else. 11:24 = Back from run. 3.36 mile, 8:38 per, I think. Not bad, didn’t have any aim in mind, pace or how I felt I just wanted to, 1, get out, and 2, reach 5k….
jouRNaling…
09:16… what now. 11:04. Car unpacked, quick call with FMM (Field Market Manager), and then again, I ask myself NOW WHAT?? Small moves, little tasks, just keep moving. This entry, being one of them. Hot out, so no run. If I could just force myself in AM, early-EARLY…. Tomorrow, trying again. Weights later, vowing to…
Aim for today is have it feel and progress and reward like yesterday.
08:26, early start with the Nurse needing to be at her campus at 07:00 or a little before. So, I’m more than merely motivated this morning. Forwarded by everything around me, seriously. Oliver on the floor by the sliding glass window probably enjoying the cooler morning atmosphere and air-feel, this Coltrane track, the coffee, all…
7-15-2026
SoCo Coffee… While my tires get replaced. When was the last time I was in Santa Rosa like this? Who knows.. not common, but I take a Mindful sitting here in the cafe and imagine Paris with the Nurse, the websites I have to design and how I’m 100x-ing down on the Web Design project. …
Office…. 08:02
Was here before 7. Rare, but it’s QBR day… Standing at the desk after getting some coffee, and I can feel the energy of the building. People talking, preparing for their presentations, there is a lot of life in here today. Me… building this new Marketing Shop, BOTTLEDAUX, see where my ideas take me and…
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7-13-2026
7-11-2026
Hustle mode. A celebration of the otherwise dismissible. Meaning, there is content fucking EVERYWHERE. Yes I play with and at times incorporate AI creative. But there’s no need this morning. NONE. This xmas cup, where I placed coffee for the drive to the Nurse’s campus. These notes, for work. List of recent cohort, 5 students…
Need to be back in the vineyard,
sooner than soon.
jouRNal
7-10-26 Nearing mid-month. How…?? 4-mile run this morning. Telling myself this is the start of so many new things. Habits, practices, operationalized efforts. After news yesterday of a Comp adjustment, I’m in entrepreneur modality, with everything. No declarative assurance, just having it written here for me to see again again, today and tomorrow and whenever….
Calm, don’t want the morning to keep moving. Why can’t I keep it still? Should go for a run. Didn’t yesterday. Back hurt a bit, and I didn’t sleep that well. Didn’t last night either but I can’t keep using that as an excuse….
Today, focusing on NOT thinking. No excess measurement, no extensive deliberating or meditating, just moving. Doing. Seeing what happens. Nurse messages me, I smile. Can’t believe it… 91 days. Time is no joke with its determination and execution. So, why think? Seriously…. I have wasted so much time, TIME, thinking. Rather than doing, moving, exploring,…