Reggae, breeze from outside, weather flawless.  The happiness and gratitude, humility, STRENGTH, is overtaking me, over and over.

5 miles yesterday.  Heading out in this ideal temp later, probably around 11.

Photog, re-emphasized.  Documenting everything, including this… Nurse and I in our vibe at the kitchen table where we’ve had so many talks and laughs, researched aspects of our wedding…. So much.  Memories unquantifiable.

Noticing in a recent entry, the other night before having a night with the other nurses at Brass Tap, I called the upstairs ‘the apartment’.  Interesting… what made me write that?  Interpreting now, objectively, or trying, the idea of young kids dating, newly moved-in, together, seeing what can be made of the Now… playful in my thoughts.

Nurse and I joke sometimes, calling the other the ‘forever boy/girlfriend’…. The appreciate and partial disbelief in what I have here, with her, and our wedding in less than 6 month.

Can this always be like this?  She said yesterday, and now I’m thinking and feeling and saying the same, a couple times just now.

Smiling, not stopping.

Feel and study and remember this – gratitude and humility.  And yes, a stroke of disbelief… feel all of it.

And never apologize, never second-guess, never wonder if you fucking deserve it.