8:57 AM

Windsor….

Been a while since I’ve written in this spot on a Saturday.  Emma and Henry up, Jack here later, much later.  Emma with a game, and the day is structured.

Latte singing to me.  Didn’t work last night as desired, and I’m more than at peace with it.  Wanted all the time with the kids.  Just missed Jack.

For the first time ever we went to the park, or Green, played on the playground.  Henry, turning 5 yesterday, thinking himself such a big kid riding at night.  Emma on her scooter.  Peace, ease, words, smiles and laughs and chases around the playground pieces.

Dishwasher in motion, yesterday’s thoughts return – one of me driving away from Napa and Napa Valley College’s area, listening to an old Thievery track.  Trying to remember what it was…. Holographic Universe?  Yeah, that was it.

The morning is different.  And calm… messaging Nurse and planning with her.  Obviously my favorite act.  Her and I as a book, Story, blog and everything associated.

She, this goddess girl and yes I might be a little excessive in emphasis, or “velcro-y” as some have said, but it’s a reaction to the love I’m feeling.

This Newness.  New story and mind and sight and appraisal of everything.  The relationship we have isn’t like any other I’ve experienced or even witnesses.  I see other couples like my parents and their friends I’ve grown up with the entirety of my existence and I’m not sure that even they have what the Nurse and I are day to day…

It shocks and inspires and instructs me.  Oftentimes I’m left dumb and mute, not sure what I’m feeling and thinking just that I can’t experience and feel enough of…

9:10

How is Henry FIVE??  Gives me such a stun.  Mindful of time and where I am, and how I arrived.  Just enjoying the thoughts… need another coffee.