Feeling off.  Arrived late.  Meeting in 19 minutes.

Talking SELF out of this lull, this lugging of soul.

Focus on the work… Aims for day are Finish Playbook, Write out agenda and send to VP, work on assessment notes.

Assessing SELF, all in the mood.  Battling it.  Type here, focus here, be HERE.  In this building.  Use this as the platform, like the former CEO said years ago.  Will never forget that… no need to wish for or grieve the absence of anything.  Celebrate what’s present.

Running at lunch.  Brought new shoes, finally.

Stepping away from desk for a second for a collective moment.  Quiet in break room, at my writing booth.  Not sure I have it in me for a 5-mile day.  Maybe just 5k and call it good.  

Just get out there and run.. Fuck my tired mind and self-lowering.  What is with me this morning?

Journaling freely until I have to be in that meeting.  15 minutes.  Then another after that.  What am I after in coming back here?  No doubt being expressed, but a curiosity.  People, what they’re after in terms of career, work-life balance, fascinating me.

Taught today and by the morning to slow down.  Gentle with self, easy.  The view from our friends’ house yesterday haunting me.  The type of house I want, and not ‘later in life’.  Now…

Getting there with content creation and putting writing in the background…. Never thought I’d say that but it’s where I am.

Truthful journal entry this morning, focusing on ME, my aims.  What’s best for Mental Health and my Psych.  Stories in everything.  Not just a simple small injection of what people call “content”.