Too hot to run, so weights it is.  Tele-appt at 13:00.  Just got off a call, now with time to SELF.  Reflect, breath, be more than just a normal mindful but see myself in this Vacaville room and house, at this desk… what did I do to get here?  Look for love, finding it, now living a Story I thought only meant for others.

Music on.  Trying to find some lesson in this sitting, where I am and what I’m doing.  All content and moments should educate.  So in this, I delight and indulge in the quiet.  This time to SELF.  Music.

Meditation, going further into thoughts.  Staying in fast till I can’t anymore, but I’m pushing self to 18+ hours.  See how the journey feels.  Need more water.  

Call with the Nurse has me in a mood that I can’t describe.  Happy and assured, I don’t know…. Just not thinking about it too much, or anything.  No overthought, just appreciation, observant.

Getting warmer up here.  Take a break, get water and feed animals.

Once back in the chair I decide to not hold myself to tasks.  Relax a bit, and just feel the Room.  Brought a kettle bell up here, 24 reps in.  24 more now and GO—

Done.  Drinking second water, and one after to follow.  Obsessed this morning with Mental Health and Health, and Fitness, hydration, as many healthy movements as I can make in a day.

Tomorrow morning, running.  At least 5 miles, hoping for 10k to start the day.  No more talking about it, either I do or don’t.

New Story started, new character.  This track, heard before.  Looking for new chill and LoFi.  More music, that’s it.  That’s the answer.

Not much happening in the CST story, or at the company.  Best Practices notes from yesterday, what all successful Reps do.  Hmmm… has me thinking, and maybe overthinking a bit.

Even if I am, I am improving as a character.  As a HUMAN.  This realization, like gold.  Gold atop gold, then more.  Nurse telling me she may be off late.  Possibly like 20:00 or 21:00.  Using the time to produce content, whatever I can, no one topic.  That gets me into trouble, when I think I have to be singularized or siloed.

No… take it all in.  All I need is this desk, laptop, maybe a couple journals, phone.  Good.  No overhead, so I have that in this writer’s favor.

Professor Mikey dot com, about learning.  From what’s in front of you.  There is no lesson plan, no curriculum.  The curriculum is your attitude, how you decide to perceive where you are, what you’re doing.  That begets WHO and what you are.  Indra, Thievery Corporation, has me with strong sense and feeling, assured of who I am.  All from yesterday in the office, last night’s wine.