11:27

Day starting with a weird vibe but it’s gone, all thanks and praise be to the Nurse.

Doing lunch with one of the educators/trainers.  At noon.  Starting to wake up.  Taking a coffee break with laptop in the writing booth in a sec.

Curriculum, that is all I’m writing.  More than curriculum, AWARENESS.  VP described me as a counselor of sorts, for the sales Reps.  Hmmm, I thought.  Never thought of it that way.

Someone eating something in the writing booth that smells like lasagna from the 80s, just odd and off-putting.

So, sitting at desk, taking a second for me before the lunch with the trainer.  Seeing me, and how I perceive me.  Often, inaccurately.  That is, excessively hard on SELF.  Why…

What prompts that, or where does it come from?  Hard to tell.  But I see it, and I’m adjusting.

11:38

Hear someone talking loud from building’s other side.  My conversation with the VP, ringing and repeating.  And so, now what…. THIS.  Designing the day’s curriculum, all around awareness of SELF.

What I’m doing in this office, how I got here, why I ever left…. I know why, but what if I would have fought more?  I don’t think I could have, they were’t building out Business Park Fiber, and that’s what the AE’s sold.

I replay it more than I should, probably.  But still, something brought me back.  And it’s this… educating new Reps.  Designing training curriculum, an Instructional Designer, if you would.